... strangely enough, despite all my dozing this weekend, I'm still sleepy ^^;;

But, Y-con was fun =D despite the delayed flight and luggage ( I'm still wondering how I was able to laught about that so much ;;; )

Got a TON of Saiyuki goodies ~<3 some new video games (which will probably be finished after a year or two XD) and a SPARKLY RAINBOW DOLPHIN 8D LOL

and of course PHOTOS. Got all my stuff on my photobucket. <3

I did squirm and flail a bit throughout the weekend, but overall didn't suffer brain damage ^.^

http://s135.photobucket.com/albums/q134/koujigirl/Ycon2009/?start=all

looks like I've already been recruited to go next year as well. This time as Zidane. YAY~ another monkey for me

EDIT: BTW, guys. I have the video of our masquerade, although the first few seconds of it are missing. Can you guys send me a copy of the script so I can put it in the video description? The sound is kinda fuzzy ^^;;

location: kitchen mood: LOL music: GLORIOUS - Rina Aiuchi tags: cosplay, photos, y-con, yay

So dad goes with grandma to the swapmeet today and brings back two new pets.

BABY QUAILS.

They're really cute and it looks like they're pretty accustomed to people. They try to flutter away if they're bothered too much, though. My sister took some photos, I'll hafta load some later. Apparently it's supposed to be a guy and a girl. *shrugs* I have no clue, but I guess we'll find out eventually?

On the other hand.... I just came back from picking up a book at borders and saw that someone had run over a small dog near the entrance of our street.

It's really sad to think how the little guy's family'll feel when they find him...... people really should take more care while they're driving, especially at night.

location: kitchen mood: disappointed music: Rina Aiuchi - double hearted tags: life, random

DAMN. I've been away from RPing too long. And Dear_mun..... 8D haha... I'm having fun with Masaru already.

http://community.livejournal.com/dear_mun/11983171.html?view=295040067#t295040067


Man, now I want a Chika so baaaad~~ Masaru needs a little sis that makes him a softie X3 Yoshino and Touma would be fun, too~. And an AGUMON. Aniki NEEDS an Kobun!!

Dammit. I need to make sure I don't attach myself to the computer again. I blame you, Ka-chan XD

location: kitchen mood: ecstatic music: Blue Bird - Ikimonogakari tags: masaru, random, rp

Stupid Masaru.

Of ALL my muses, YOU had to be the one that made me cave. DX

As if he wasn't already loud enough WITHOUT the roleplaying ^^;;;;

location: kitchen mood: amused music: Hirari - Kouji Wada tags: masaru, random, rp

Got my first class today. As much as I don't really like taking Saturday classes, it's an animal wildlife art class and the ONLY time it's offered is on saturdays. ^^; At least I already know the teacher, so it should be enjoyable, I also hear we will be having many fieldtrips. FUN =D

Summer sure didn't turn out the way I had thought it would in May. I didn't end up traveling all over the place to look at galleries, I worked in the daycare, even looked after it when mom had to go to mexico for a week TWICE and I didn't quite get to spend as much time on my art as I had hoped to, but even so, I did end up growing up in various ways =)

When mom was gone for those weeks, I took on more responsibility than I ever had before, now understand my mom better after being in her shoes and feel, if only a little, more capable of dealing with large tasks now. I even got a small experience of what it was like to "earn" my own money ((well, it came from mom, so it's not the same as a real job, but it's a start? ^^;)) and be able to save or spend it.

I got the experience of telling my feelings to someone special to me for the first time and all the awkwardness that came with it in the beginning XD I feel very lucky that I wasn't rejected my first time, and although we didn't have as much time together as we would've liked (mostly my fault ^^;;;) we did make some fun memories and shared a lot of new things before he had to go back to Chico last week for school. I'm not quite sure what a "normal" relationship is supposed to be like, Alex says we're probably not normal, but that's okay because we're probably not "normal" people to begin with XD. Haha.. I love how he said that. I'm certainly fine with that, and he still called me just about everyday since he left so I'm sure everything'll be fine even though we can't see each other for a while. I even think I've become a little more.... girly. XD LOL.

I got to make my first hour-or-so-long drive to Comic-Con =D Damn, it was kinda tiring, but with Alex was there to talk to me the whole time, so it wasn't as bad as I feared. Comic-con itself was AMAZING. Sadly, we only went 1 day and missed the panels we had wanted to see, but I still loved the exhibition hall and I got to play on Duel Terminals XD. YAY~~~

Those were some of the bigger things that I recall, but I know there were various smaller things too that my mom and sister had commented on so, all in all, this summer was still one to remember. =) I actually do feel like a different person from the one I was in May. Oh, I'm still a dork and a git (probably will be forever XD) but I think I feel just a little more confident and mature. I'm making more decisions for myself and am getting more freedom from my parents and dealing with more responsibility.

Now that School's starting, I'm looking forward to a lot more new experiences to grow from as well. -^__^-

location: Kitchen mood: good music: Ayumi hamasaki - We Wish tags: life, school, summer

Grandma starting throwing up stuff again today. =( Just when she had been doing fine thru the week.

I think it's all because of stress. Last time on saturday, Mom and dad had just left. That was pretty stressfull. Today, we got in the two new kids, 5 yr old boy and 2 yr old girl. Boy was pretty good. A little hyper, but a good listener and polite. The girl....

She CRIED. Okay, okay. I expected it, I mean, she's TWO years old. Actually, she didn't even cry as much or as bad as I had thought. However, her crying stressed out grandma a LOT. Not much I could do there.... :/ Also, I let my sis go with her friends for disneylad tomorrow so she's gonna be out the whole day. That kinda stressed grandma since she'd be alone with the kids while I picked up and dropped off kids at school.

Really, there's only gonna be 3 kids coming in for the morning, the new kids and our usual two year old, it's not a big deal and grandma can handle them while I drive the school kids around. I know she can, heck, the boy actually tries to take care of his sister. He calmed her down a bit today. But grandma nonetheless started throwing up today in the afternoon. I somewhat regret letting my sister go, but honestly, she been a GREAT help to me this week. She's really worked hard and I really wanted to give her some free time, ya know? She's earned it. She's always falling asleep in the afternoons. She's tired, but she tells me that I shouldn't let her sleep, she wants to be with me. This was supposed to be my work. Not hers, but she's stuck by me as much as she could, and I can't thank her enough for that.

I hope grandma will be okay. If that wasn't enough, I think I just found out my mom learned has ulcers (she said the name in spanish, not sure if I'm right) during her stay in Mexico and MIGHT have to stay longer for tests/ treatment D= On top of that, Alex was here with me when I got the call and I started crying. He just kinda held me for a while and I knew he felt bad about the fact that he can't do anything to help me. I can't allow anybody who hasn't been fingerprinted and ok'd by the lincensing office into the daycare during working hours. He, Sal and a ton of other people have offered help and support, but I can't really let them do anything.

... My head hurts. I ate pretty much squat again today and I seem to only serve to worry people about me more lately. I think I may have even ruined part of Alex's day tomorrow...


I feel kinda sick myself. Hope mom will call tomorrow with better news after seeing the doctors again.

...I'm pretty worried.

location: living room mood: worried music: Rina Aiuchi - Glorious tags: alex, daycare, family, grandma

So mom and dad took off this morning at 7 a.m and I greeted the first child soon after they left. Then, at around 7:30, another kid comes in and he and his mom tell me that I just got parking tickets on two of our cars parked in the street. D8

Yeah.... not such a great start to this week. Apparently officers must be confused 'cuz half of my street a recquires parking permit. The permit on my half was removed just this month. Anyhow, I rummaged thru mom's letters and stuff and found the letter notifying me and my neighbors about the permit removal. There was a number, so I called, left a message and was replied to later in the day. The guy listened to me, asked me to e-mail a scan of the tickets to him and he forwarded them to an office for me. I should be receiving a call next week about whether they were pardoned or if I need to re-psend them and the police should be notified about the permits. Either way, I've got the cars off the street just in case.

Things went okay with the daycare. The older kids were a bit rowdy after I picked them up from summer school, one in particular wasn't a good listener. Anyhow, after the last kid left at 6:30 pm, I was feeling a bit more secure about working the daycare by myself.

The real trouble started at 2 a.m. My little sis woke me up telling me she saw grandma heading to the living room, coughing and sounding like she was gonna throw up and slightly bleeding from her nose. Sure enough, grandma had stumbled into the living room/ daycare and was on the floor with a blanket and slightly blood-stained pillow, groaning and coughing.

Inwardly, I just immediately panicked. I wanted to take her to the hospital immediately since I feared her ammonia was acting up again. Somehow, I managed to stay calm, talk to her a bit and observed for a while.

Coughing subsided, with her having random bouts of it, but over pretty spaced intervals. I tried calling mom and dad, who didn't answer at all. Still concerned, since grandma was now trying to move and wasn't speaking very well, I called my aunts in Mexico since they had been looking after grandma for the last few months. We couldn't do much at all. Sis and I managed to get her to a couch and she seemed to calm a bit more. I checked her blood sugar and it was fine. My aunts told me they'd pray for her and that keep an eye out, that maybe she had some phleghm and to call back again if she seemed to worsen.

After I get off the phone, grandma starts retching. We got a bag for her and sure enough, she hacked up pleghm mixed with blood. We're still watching her, though she seems to be breathing fine now and finally fell back to sleep.


...I'm scared. Plus, I feel shitty and stupid since I started tearing up and sniffling right after my aunts told me 'not to cry'. My sis ended up trying to console ME. While my voice was cracking, she was completely calm and even able to sing a lullaby to my grandma while I could only look on. She even said that there was no way she was going to summer school now. She wasn't gonna leave me alone.

I'M supposed to be the older sister. I should be able to take care of this. I know we joke around a lot that she acts older and more like an older sister than I do, but really, this just really made me feel so hopeless and pathetic that she had to take care of me right now.

I feel like shit right now. It's 5:40 am, I've slept only about an hour and a half, eaten only a bit of chicken, beans and some almonds and drank tea in the last 24 hours and even though I kinda feel hungry, I can't bring myself to eat.




I'm scared to leave my grandma. As it is, I'm afraid to leave my sis alone today to go to Liz's party. I'm scared to let Alex and Sal take me out this sunday. Hell, I don't even wanna go to Anime Expo anymore.

I know I'm being overdramatic. I can't help it. Grandma has a lotta medications she takes, she can't walk that well on her own and she is constantly tired and falling asleep.



I miss mom and dad. I know they put a lot of faith in me, to leave me with the daycare, my sis and grandma, but I'm scared now.

I CANNOT run the daycare absolutely by myself. Sis and grandma helped out A LOT today, especially when I had to leave to drop off and pick up kids from school. I'll hafta figure out something, since mom really wanted sis to go to summer school and I certainly don't wanna keep her from it either.

I haven't stopped crying. My eyes sting, probably will throughout the rest of today.

Hopefully grandma will be better, she's still sleeping and is breathing fine. I'm not gonna sleep anymore. Gonna see if I can clean up around here and prepare activities for the kids next week. While I'm at it, maybe I'll stop being stupid and a big baby. I can't afford to screw up. I can't.

location: living room, with grandma mood: crushed tags: daycare, grandma, life

Okay... so I'm gonna be in charge of mom's daycare tomorrow and next week while she and dad go to Mexico. I think I'll be okay with the kids... Two of them are gonna be out, 4 of them are older kids that are gonna be in summer school half the day, and two more are gonna be here only part of the week so I only have the little 2 year old girl who'll be here everyday. What does scare me is that we may have two new kids starting next week, which means I have ABSOLUTELY no clue as to how well they'll behave. D8 Not to mention I'm not too keen on having to drive the kids to summer school in the morning and then picking them up again. I hafta figure out a good route and time so that I'm not late for anyone and I don't leave grandma alone with the other kids for too long.

mom's shown me where all the files and papers are should an inspector stop by. Apparently there is also some kinda daycare "hotline" I can call for support at ANYTIME should something wrong happen. I'm still pretty stressed out about it, though. I'm gonna be working on Saturday morning to figure out what activities I'm gonna do with the kids and make preparations... Mom's made a list of their favorite circle time songs, and prepared some worksheets already. I mostly need to take care of 4th of July arts and crafts.


Also.... My sister MIGHT be going to summer school D=

This raises a couple of problems:

A) I won't have the extra help around with the kids (grandma can keep an eye on them, but really, she can't do much to stop them from doing crazy stuffs >>).

B) I'm gonna hafta drop her off in the morning at the train station at 6:40am and make it back home in time to meet the first kid that comes in at 6:50 am. I'm gonna hafta drop her off earlier ;;;;;; not to mention she'll hafta hitch a ride back home with a friend because I won't be able to pick her up in the afternoon D=

C) AX Plans may have to change. The deal was that she would go Thur and Fri while I stayed at the daycare and made sure grandma was okay and then I'd have my days on Sat and Sun while she took care of grandma. With summer school, she won't be able to go, which means we'd hafta split sat and sunday and Sunday is a short day so... it wouldn't really be fair to one of us .__. hnn.... I guess for me it would be best to go sunday (so I can take sorcerehuntress and natusko) but then I won't be able to go with Sal and do the Masaru cosplay which kinda saddens me... T^T

We'll hafta wait and see I suppose. My sis is on the wait list, so it's not definite, but while I like out plans now, I know that taking those summer classes will make things easier for her in the fall. *sigh*


I'm pretty scared stiff of the whole thing. Hope everything goes well. Hopefully the kids'll behave better than they did today. ;;;

location: living room mood: intimidated music: Over shine - Rina Aiuchi tags: daycare, life, parents

so....

it looks like I'm only going for Saturday and Sunday this year and I'm carpooling with Sal for Saturday. Sunday... I might drive since Sal isn't going. I Haven't gotten an exact "ok" from mom on that yet. If I do, I might be able to take a couple of passengers. I'll post when I get a definite answer on that.

Since I'm only going those two days I guess I'm gonna cosplay Masaru on Saturday (since Sal is supposed to be Touma) and I'll do my Burial Goku on Sunday.



Looks like I'm also going ot go to Liz's party this Saturday =) Hopefully nothing happens that will interefere with that.

AND Sal and Alex seem to have plans for abducting me on Sunday XD haha.... and according to Sal, Alex is the one who reminded him of the date. I give Alex points for actually managing to remember without my saying anything. He says he's trying to find some kind of art gallery to go to since he remembered me mentioning my summer plans to him in May. -^__^- It was sweet to hear him say that.

location: living room mood: busy tags: alex, ax, cosplay

Just dropped off Alex at home not too long ago =) I'm happy and content.

Day got off to an awkward start (awkward for me at any rate) since I was the one who suggested for us to get together at noon and was half an hour late getting home since mom asked me to run errands. >_> So... Alex said he didn't mind ("hey it was your mom, what could you do?") but I was still embarassed about being late. And then even more when I had to make Alex wait another half an hour while I ate breakfast D= although he did munch along with me.

We ended up going to the the Nickel Arcade down Edinger at around 1pm, played games together (some racing games, house of the dead) and did our own thing for a short while before heading to the Bella Terra mall for Upper Deck. We bought some stuff, then wandered around a bit before heading to Barnes & Nobles to browse about and check out our stuffs. We decided to come back to my house around 5 and I made hamburgers for us and my sister.

After foods, Alex and I sat to duel so we could use the new stuff we bought at Upper Deck. We did that for about an hour, after which we kinda just lounged around and watched the Disney channel and talked. I actually laid in his lap for a while, and it was really comfy. I was just so content -^.^- (and I'm glad that mom and dad were out for the day, that way I wasn't embarassed about doing that XD) and I dropped him off at 8:30pm. He told me he had a good time, so I'm happy =)



XD I feel giddy and warm inside now. yay~

location: living room mood: -^_^- music: Double Hearted - Rina Aiuchi tags: alex, first date, life

Got this from natusko =D

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST. I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. You are obviously on my f-list, so let me know with whom I'm friends with!

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?



and aside from that, tomorrow....

FIRSTDATEFIRSTDATEFIRSTDATEFIRSTDATE 8D

I'm so excited ^^ and I already told mom and she promised not to fuss or interfere =)

location: room mood: ecstatic music: Pray - TommyHeavenly6 tags: alex, meme, random

After dropping off Yuki and Christian today, I finally told Alex how I felt.

He kinda stayed quiet and then sorta was, "wait, WHUT?" and then we talked about the irony about ME beign the one to say this and all, before we kinda stayed quiet and then switched topics during the ride home.

he didn't say anything regarding my words for a couple of hours, where we got to my house and we played cards and did our dorky stuff like normal.

Then, just as he was leaving for home, he asked if I wanted to hang out with him next Saturday. I asked him a bit, just to make sure I wasn't making assumptions, but....



WE HAVE A DATE NEXT SATURDAY!!! =D I'M REALLY, REALLY HAPPY -^__^-




....now is just the question of when and how I'm spilling the beans to mom and dad .__. I know they have no problems with Alex and trust him, I just... don't want them fussing over me or anything ^^;;;;;;;

location: home, my room mood: ALRIGHT!!!!!!! music: Again - Fullmetal Alchemist 2 - OP1 tags: alex, life, random

... one of the moms from the daycare blew up and is taking her kids out of the daycare. Really, it was stupid and really ungrateful on her part. She's under some government daycare program or another and has owed my mom money for a YEAR. She's now stressed 'cuz she apparently owes money at a number of places, YELLS at my mom, and is STILL not even considerate enough to think about how my mom has kindly continued to take in her kids without hassling her. And her kids are by far the WORST kids in the daycare.

She had THREE kids with us. That's A LOT of money gone there. and we're gonna be losing about 2-3 more of the older kids over the summer once they get outta school.

Mom can't and really has no good reason to try and keep her assistant (who was little help to begin with, anyhow... ;;;)

So now once again I need to stay at the daycare except, instead of just mornings and afternoons like before, now it's a FULL TIME thing.

I really shouldn't be surprised. After all, this is what has happened everytime I seem to try and do something to get outta the house or try to apply for a job. But still.... I don't really wanna be here anymore. Sure, with two of the troublemakers out of the daycare, things should be less stressfull, but I can't do what I planned anymore. I won't have as much time to paint and do stuff, to go explore new areas, look at galleries and so forth and I proabably should give up on trying to look for a job. I've sent a couple of applications and called two other places, and had nothing so far but I probably won't be allowed to do anything anymore, anyhow.

This sucks. I guess it shouldn't be that big of a deal, but I'm just frustrated that EVERYTIME I try and do something, SOMETHING happens with the daycare and I'm roped back in.

I can deal with the kids, but I don't really have a passion for the sorta thing. I guess... I'm just for some reason scared that I'm gonna end up here no matter what I try....

maybe I'm just being stupid about all this because I'm frustrated. *sigh* I'm going to Frank & Sons tomorrow with some friends to get some new cards for my decks. Maybe my head'll be more clear after that.

Mom's really upset too, and I know she feels kinda bad for keeping me here. but most of all, she was upset by the other mom's reaction to her asking for what was rightfully hers. She talked to her calmly and the bitch blows up in her face. Damn good thing I stayed inside. I've never had the desire to bitch-slap someone before, but I sure as hell did today. I NEVER WANT TO SEE THAT WOMAN AGAIN.

location: my room mood: >[ music: Don't Say Lazy - K-ON! - ED1 tags: daycare, life

I FAIL.

...I lost my wallet today with EVERYTHING in it. D8 Credit card, ATM, Driver's license, store member cards and my money.

Called the card companies already to let them know and left a report at the site where I lost it with a description and my number. They made an announcement about it several times, but no luck.

... Crap. This sucks. I'm just glad I'm done with school already so I don't exactly need to drive atm. But I am gonna hafta get a new license soon ;;;;;

...I still hope it'll turn up somehow )=

location: my room mood: distressed music: Last Kiss - Orphen ED tags: license, life, random

I had fun making this XD
Cartooning and Caricature, Final: Caricature of a Famous celebrity.

YAY Dwayne Johnson and donuts =D Man, I want donuts now, too. I also had an image in mind of Dwayne and Vash the stampede XD Oh gods..... dunno if I'll ever actually draw it, though.



Now I just gotta finish my animation final ;;;


....


Mom went therapist on me for 3 HOURS D=

now it's 1am and I still need to finish animation work >>

location: my room mood: amused music: It's crazy for you - Rina Aiuchi tags: random, school

as I gain yet ANOTHER big brother XD

This time it was Jeff from my Drawing and Painting class. He's a really nice guy, and I talk to him a lot during class, show him my anime stuffs and he's pretty calm guy. He also ruffles my hair, too and I give him hugs XD. Anyhow, since it was the last day of class and he was gonna graduate, he decides to give me his e-mail and another copy of his phone number and tells me, "call me up or send me a message if you need anything. Or if you have another of those questions," by which he was referring to when I had asked for some advice regarding one of the guys asking me out.

I laughed and asked if he was concerned, and if he was, was it because someone was actually asking me out, or because I actually had to ask him for help regarding such a thing. he basically said, "because you had to ask me." he also said he regards me as a little sister too, so of course he's worried. -^__^- Awww.... that made me really happy and warm inside.

It seems no matter what I do, people see me as a little kid and wanna take care of me. Even Jeff's friend, Brian, seemed to take to me the same way despite the fact we didn't talk as much and gave me his info too =)

I kinda like that... being the little sister and all, but really, I think I need to start growing up a bit more. I have a lotta stuff I wanna do this summer. Tell Alex how I feel, Anime expo, Comic con, maybe a summer job, animation project, see art galleries, grow as an artist, maybe go camping with the guys, have some adventures and try some other stuff. I'm also postponing my graduation and give myself more time to grow as an artist. I wanna research, experiment and learn since I don't think I've really had the time to do that.

I don't know, but to me it sorta feels like this summer's gonna bring a lotta new stuff and I'm gonna grow in a number of ways because of it. ^^

location: my room mood: loved music: Dear... From... - Rina Aiuchi tags: art, friends, life, random, school

...Alex has become a JackxCarly fanboy and refuses to watch 5Ds 58 until it is subbed. I got curious and decided to watch, even though I have final projects and stopped watching back at episode 43.

I LOL'd XD Seriously, those fantasies.... whut? haha.... I knew something was screwy when alex told me the duel ended in one episode. YEAH RIGHT. The git. and like they'd show the result of the duel in the preview :/ Ah well... at least now I know I was right XD

Oh, Alex.... I wonder what you will make of this now? XD I am going to laugh at him when he finally watches this and comes calling me in horror or shock XD haha...


And I may actually bother to catch up with these episodes next week after finals ^^;

location: my room mood: amused music: My Name is Rose - Nightcore tags: random, yay, ygo

TODAY WAS WIN.

I LOVE YOU KA-CHAN, DANNY AND KATRINA. -^_^-

SoCal cosplay gathering was FUN. I was so happy to see 3 GX cosplayers and almost the entire Digimon Adventure group =D I had Juudai on for half the day then Masaru for the rest of the time.

and Karina and Danny got much love for their Gurren Lagann cosplay. Their banner got MUCH MUCH love, as well. EPIC FLAG WAS EPIC GUYS XD

and Katrina, way to end the caramelldansen with Canada. LOL.

Ramen at Mitsuwa was also good, an I now have YGO GX volume 5. =D YAYS my first manga in a few months XD

ah.... face got sunburned and I don't care ^^ a little sleepy, but otherwise fine.

I also finally got to watch Bolt today. Nice, I actually liked it =)

all in all, great day today. <3

location: kitchen mood: relaxed music: Just break the limit! - UVERworld tags: cosplay, friends, fun, yay

are gonna be the death of me.... >> Leah just tried to KICK me for telling her to sit inside for a time out and this isn't the first time. And this is after me putting up with her attitude for the morning because mom had some important guy over so I couldn't have her wailing and doing pulling stupid crap inside.

I hate being tied to the daycare SO MUCH. I don't know how mom manages to deal with it. Not to mention I should be working on final projects, but can't. and a 15 min break isn't gonna allow me to do much :/

I don't even wanna start thining about summer, when ALL the kids are gonna be here all day instead of at school D: Dear gods.... the older kids are no help at all, they only rile up the little ones more.


I can't wait for tomorrow. I SERIOUSLY JUST NEED TO GET OUT AND HAVE SOME FUN.


as for now... I need some tea....

location: kitchen. mood: irritated music: Pray - TommyHeavenly6 tags: children, daycare, life, ranting

Why does it seeem that now that I actually like someone, guys are suddenly hitting on me or asking me out? D=

I mean, it's not the first time, but 3 guys in one month?! That's more than the 3 guys in the last... what was it... 7 years? O_o

....It's kinda troublesome, and I don't like it... I know I'm silly for making a fuss over it, but still.... this is new to me so it's awkward. >>

One more month, darnit.

location: home mood: *flail* music: Rina Aiuchi - GLORIOUS tags: awkward, guys, life

STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID

*headdesks*

>___< I hate myself.... WHY NOW OF ALL TIMES DAMMIT?!?!

Excuse me while I headdesk and flail some more.... - -;;

location: my room mood: WHY?! music: Rina Aiuchi - Set You Free tags: fail, random

Okay... mom found a strange note left on the windshield of my car this morning....

(link only cuz I scanned the thing huge enough to read)
http://i135.photobucket.com/albums/q134/koujigirl/random/00_invitation.jpg

While the whole thing seems kinda fun and whatnot (the stationary print was pretty cool), I don't know who left it for me and it wasn't in an envelope, so there was no address. Just a handwritten name on the back.

And it was marked for KAEL. My character. D8 This better be from Sal 'cuz otherwise, I don't know how the hell anyone managed to find out where I live or that the corolla is my car.

I guess I might just be paranoid at the moment.... ;;;;;

....I'm calling Sal.


EDIT: It was Sal and Alex. =D OMG I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. I found out that Alex has been writing the story for our 5Ds characters for the past 2 MONTHS. He just sent me the first chapter today and it was AWESOME!!! He told me how he, Sal and the rest of the guys in our group had been working on this, editing and revising so they could surprise me.


I feel so spoiled.... they're always doing stuff for me, I'm clueless, and then I just don't know what I can do in return....

Alex says he's glad that I liked the story and that by itself was his reward since he had written it for me. I just felt so happy, and warm inside not to mention that my face turned bright red.





....I've actually been wondering about this for a while, but since I've never experienced it before and since we've always been so tight, I kinda didn't know what to make of it and thought it was brotherly/ best friend love, but I kinda realize that even though I'm just as close to Sal, he doesn't make me feel the same way.

DO I HAVE A CRUSH ON ALEX??? D: I'M SOOOOOOOOO CONFUSED!!!!! -> __ <-

location: my room mood: touched music: Kuru Kuru Lovely Day! - U tags: kael, random, wtf, ygo

Me and my two friends actually decided to finally go ahead and start posting stuff regarding our YGO 5Ds characters! ^o^

Alex went ahead and posted my Kael backstory as our first chapter on FF.Net which motivated me to go ahead and create that new DA account for our kids =)

I've got 50+ images to upload, so I'll do that slowly.... what I wanna get up right now are stuff to give an idea of who the characters are and how they get along. I really wanna clean up and color a lot of this stuff too, but with all the things I'm working on, they're gonna stay as sketches for a while.

But anyways! I'm really excited to have our two acounts!

FF.Net account: http://www.fanfiction.net/~lilyvess

DA account: http://kael-croubur.deviantart.com/

We all will probably doing some writing, so the FF.Net account is shared, but I'm pretty much the only artist in the group so I'm charge of the DA account for now.

Posted about our stuff on the ygo_5ds comm and Yugi_fans. We'll see what happens =)

location: art class mood: ecstatic music: I dunno... some opera thing apparently O_o tags: friends, ocs, random, yay, ygo

Sorries for being DEAD for like the last months, guys -__-U

Taking all art classes again this semester so I gots project after project and with mom making sure I get into bed by 10 pretty much everyday, I just don't get to mess around like I used to. :/

But, despite everything, I am enjoying my classes; special studies in character animation on Monday, Cartooning and Caricature on Tuesday, and drawing and painting A and B on Wednesday adn Thursday. All of them from 9 am to 3:45 pm =) easy enough for me to remember.

The animation class is easily the one eating up most of my time. Especially 'cuz I fail with staging D= each time I gotta revise that, I gotta move the characters too, so that means doing at least 50 somethign images all over again... >>

ah well, at least I'm practicing? ^^;;;

Oh yeah! and as if animation wasn't stealing aenough time, 2 of my friends have looped me into building a 5Ds deck (guess who I got? XD) and then creating a character for it. So, being the artist in the group, I drew All of our characters out and am now constanlty scribbling them during my 10 min breaks. ^^ I'm even trying to make little comics with them =) and my friend Alex is working on writing stories for them. He's created an FF.net account already and I'll probably create another DA account for the scribbles, but they're on photobucket for now: http://s135.photobucket.com/albums/q134/koujigirl/Personal%20Characters/LKL/

I love my character, KC, now, and Leo and Lily belong to my other 2 friends. I was so against creating a 5Ds deck in the beginning but now I'm having fun with it =). I still am not very fond of Yuusei, but I am starting to have fun with his deck. JUNK. XD SO MUCH FUN. Leo and Lily belong to my other friends and run the morphotronic and plant decks, respectively. Unlike our GX characters, it seems we're actually trying to go somewhere with these kids. I still got my E-hero deck and play with it, maybe I'll re-draw our old I wish I could do more finished drawings, but the guys are pretty happy with my scribbles for now.

As for RP....... I don't I'm gonna be doing that for quite a while now ):

I feel pretty bad about that, but along with school, the 5Ds thing, and the manga for anime club (which I need to ask what's going on 'cuz I never received layouts or anything to work with :/), I haven't been on my computer unless it was for class purposes. Sorries ;;;;; I should formally drop my characters on Elysium, now that I think of it O_o;;;;;; Bad, bad, bad >>.


Oh! and lastly, after splash 's last entry, I went rummaging through my shirts and wanted to show some of the stuff I have XD I wanted to take photos, but I'm kinda home alone at the moment, so photos are kinda crappy ^^;;; I TRIED.

http://s135.photobucket.com/albums/q134/koujigirl/random/

BTW, That YGO DM shirt is from 10 yrs ago, I'm surprised it has survived and still fits me O_O
I've also got a Charizard shirt, Avatar shirt and another YGO DM shirt that's in the laundry.

the fun thing about being small, I can wear children's anime clothes XD

and I'm so happy to have 2 GX shirts and even a digimon savers one, now I just need a saiyuki one!! =D

location: my room mood: busy music: Delux (Eurobeat Mix) - Key-a-kiss - ParaParaParadise tags: anime, friends, life, ocs, photos, random, ygo

So... My parents decided on the trip at the last minute and since plane tickets were running at at least $1000 per person and we had 6 people going (me, my sis, mom, dad, grandma, uncle), going by plane pretty much got ruled out and went by car. My parents took turns driving and we got there in around 50 hours driving with only a few rest stops and some hold ups with car registration or whatever it was called.

Everyone was really glad to see us =) We stayed with my mom's family since they have a bigger house and a LOT more space. I love my mom's side of the family, she's got 3 sisters and 3 brothers, most of them married and with families, but 4 out of three of them live together. They own a fairly big area of land and have 4 houses built on it, so everyone lives really close. I LOVE IT. My cousins (most of them WAY younger than me, 10 yrs old or so) all come to my aunt Martha's place to play and run around. Made me kinda feel like I was back in the daycare ^^;; but it was fun.

My family also had a ton of fruit trees, two of which I can't remember, but there was tamarind, pomegranate, limes, oranges, guanavana, guavas, and misperos (sp? and a spanish name, dunno what it is in english :/). I had fun trying all sorts of strange fruits during my stay, most of which I can't remember or spell their names XD.

We went out quite a bit, walked downtown in the Zocalo, went to see several pyramids (damn the climb on the first one, took an hour to get to the top >_<), went to see a waterfall, went to a forest, a park with swings, horses and ATVs. It was really fun. And on the days we didn't go out and stayed home, one of my aunts taught me to make cookies from scratch, flowers within gelatins and took me walking to the market.

Both of Christmas and New years were basically large dinners iwth the family and fireworks later, nothing out of the ordinary, but very fun and enjoyable. I got some new clothes a gold necklace with the kanji for "longevity" from my mom for christmas. Funny, 'cuz I remember mentioning to her once that I had a short lifeline on my hand. I wonder if she was thinking of that she got the necklace for me? XD Either waym she really did give me the necklace with the wish that I live a long and happy life. :) I'm happy for that.

We got to see my dad's side of the family for a couple of days too, and I met some of my mom and dad's old friends from high school. I hope I'll still be seeing my friends around 10, 20 years from now.

We were pretty sad when we had to leave, especially since my grandma and my uncle ended up staying behind. But, it looks like my grandma might be returning to the U.S. in August or so. :) I'm glad.

Now I'm gonna check on my gelatin mix for the flowers. My friend's B-day is tomorrow, and I'm making some for him. Maybe I can take a picture of one when I finish, the flowers look pretty when I manage to do it well. My aunt's were awesome, I hope I can manage to make them like her someday =D

and as for RP.... Uh.... I think I'm at a point where I've been gone so long that it's hard for me to get back into it. -___-U I don't wanna drop or anything.... but, I kinda lack motivation and doubt I'd do a good job right now. Sorries :X I'll work on that! And I gotta work on stuff for artist faction at school and I now owe drawings to several family members. I gots work to do before school starts again =)

location: my room mood: :D music: Rimless - Toaru Majutsu no Index ED 1 tags: christmas, gelatin, mexico, new years